No Good

Why am I so naive I give everyone a chance to be a good person. I allow them to make mistakes because I think that they can change. The only thing that changes is the way they let me down. I try and believe that there is good in everyone but I am beginning to think that I am wrong. I have seen all the guys that treat me like scum. But I have seen them with their brothers, sisters, nieces, and refuses, and that is were I see what I think is real. However, what is wrong with me that I get treated like shit and go back to them. Maybe I wont to find the good, maybe I just believe that if I change enough or try something else than it will be different. I have always wonted acceptance from my mom and dad and maybe that’s what I won’t from the others in my life as well. Maybe I need to stop looking for the good in people maybe no one has any? I just give up there are things that I wont but none of the things I won’t will accept me. And the way that I am I can’t won’t the one that wont’s me.

“I wish you were different. I like you for who you are, but who you are won’t allow you to like me. You don’t care that I exist I guess it’s my fault for caring for someone who will never care for me.”